Temptations & Ambitions

"A111010, Wong Yee Ming."


That was the only thing I heard this evening that would calm my furiously beating heart. The callout of the seemingly never ending list of names began as soon as our newly appointed Dean (and Director), Prof Raymond reached the gallery. I was glad that it was all over. The medical student's life. And yet I knew I would miss them in the future, I look forward in life for what awaits me. 

I guess I can never really get used to the title that comes with the course, but it signifies the 5 years journey of enduring the roller coaster ride. I had my ups and downs, in a place which humbled me, to show me how inadequate someone like me can be, to learn, to grow up, and to be seasoned with the valuable experiences that comes with the journey. I would have given myself a pat for completion of this long marathon, but I realize that this is just the beginning of yet another journey far more challenging. It is not just about a career in this line, but to juggle it with the reality of life, and to start a family as we go. I would like to plan far ahead, but would my plans proceed smoothly as it goes?

P.S: For those who know me well, I would be more comfortable if I'm being called by my very own name, Yee Ming. For others, it is optional, call me whatever you want, as long as it is my name. I wouldn't mind "handsome" though. :P

The air out of the window seems calm. After some 5 years, and hopefully the final gasping grasping moments, now comes the calm before the storm.



The long path seems never ending, walking on the narrow path of sturdy planks. You hope that you would reach the end all these while. In line with the school of what you may call compatriots, gliding down the last journey for most of us. To embark on a new journey.



 But then, all you see is yourself doing this:



And so, the question is, are we going to take this very leap of faith? Or to hold it for maybe, another 6 months for some unfortunate some (hopefully me not included).


All the best to everyone who would be facing the same fate as me. May God(whichever yours may be) bless you. All the best of luck.

 

Gossips and rumors are lethal, and yet they are attractive. Though I have not been taken part in the active search for them for years too many beyond countable, my passive receptors still work. Of course, I am to be blamed if anything got out of the mouth, but no one asked where did I got hold of such information in the first place. Most of the time, I am the nth person to know, usually not the top 100 on the list. The best friend that had been told of is usually the first to leak to many, or sometimes, the perpetrator himself/herself told one story too many times to everyone, and assumes that it is a secret.

Maybe that is why I love so much of the term "cifrado en un cifrado". To hide it in your words, and to cover with another layer of meaning. The art of doubt and deception is not as sinful as one would have thought. It is just a tool to sharpen your mind. To doubt is to concern. We doubt because we want to know more of a person. We doubt if we really know enough of them. And so, trust is not merely believing wholly in someone, it is when we had stopped(finished) doubting. Blind trust after all, may lead to blind thrust. 2 full moons and a thrusting projectile? You get the gist of the impending doom.


But heck, do not expect me to keep your petty stories away from public. I am public. I am private. That is for me to decide. For every story told, there is at least another story untold. :P