Temptations & Ambitions

Wiki is Not a Bad Thing Afterall

Recently, I had this PPD project, that is, to develop a webpage. As grand as it seems, it is just 'Wiki'ing on the designated website in UKM e-learning aka Wiki Style. Nevertheless, I did some experimentation with the Wiki format. Well, it seems easy at first, but to add more pictures and tables and links, that's a bit harder. With time, it all became easy when you get the hang of it. By now, I even know how to put in a 'micro' sign(mu) in Wiki and the superscript plus subscript. What a satisfaction!

Basically, Wiki format is similar to html (because certain html format is allowed in wiki), but simpler. However, doing a research on a topic on disease is head-cracking, because we had to do it in Malay to prevent us from 'copy and paste' directly from English websites! I congratulate myself for the gallant effort to recall all the Malay terms and to google for new terms online. So, it is never a waste to retain my BM knowledge after all!

So, my topic was on Wilson'sdisease. After some research and translation, here's a so-called complete page:

Misfiring Blank

Perhaps, this is a good time to start back the soberness in me as I thread my mind into the horizon of the night. Darkness, and emptiness. For once, I felt like scribbling the dark emotions within me, just for myself. What am I doing now, perhaps was a sign of fatigue, or a sign of change? Or perhaps, it was a sign of never ending cycle of being me, myself. The voices of crickets could be heard outside, as the stars were calling from the dark clouds of KL. Despite the temptations from a soft comfortable bed humming its soft lullaby, I kept myself faithful in front of the screen. After a long absence from blogging, I wonder if I do have any interest in it anymore. I have not kept in contact with most friends of mine, as we are following our own paths. It could be as simple as choosing a path from two roads in literature, but in life, there are multiple paths diverging from a single path of origin. In the end, our rendezvous place would be in heaven or hell. Or perhaps, to undergo another cycle of diverging paths from a new set of path of origin? Ah..I do not know. I do not wish to be religious here. It is time to stop this relentless rave. I am, after all, a true agnostic.

The Spinning Fantasy

Ever since the introduction of the digital world in our analog world, no one knew that this was going to be the next big thing. Something that would change our lives for real, and for good. The pioneers of the digital world had envisioned something even more ambitious than me running an election for the next election for the post of the President of the United States of America: The replacement of paperbacks and hardcovers by e-books, or in short, the digitalization of the book industry.

Now, now, I find it rather amusing because such replacement would never happen, not in my lifetime yet, I guess. There are always pros and cons for both consumers and the industry, fairly simple. So, now, I am going to start with the pros and cons for the book industry first. Note that I had only quote a few points because I find that I can rant non-stop on this issue.
On the aspect of the consumer, the pros would involve some cons of the industry. That is the reality, as one would benefit out of the expense of the other. E-books would become so affordable when piracy is practised. This would be good, promoting techno-savviness among the younger generation. I myself find an e-book handy because I can print out selected pages for my PBL resources and a quick browse would be even much easier. Well, for those tech-savvy, you can put the PDF files in your mobile devices such as PDAs and read while on the move. A pdf version is always lighter than a 6-pounds book. Even for certain professionals like doctors, it would be handy to refer to the files in a PDA rather than carrying a big book in front of your patient! Plus, it looks cool too!

The Selfish Pursuit of Medicine


the elites enter, and they are somewhat selfless, because they want to lend their hands towards the people who surrounds them, towards the people they could reach. The so-called 'passion of selflessness' was thought to be required, otherwise, the sacrifices one made would have deter them from the field. Although there are many exceptions to these, let's make it the point of today's topic as there has to be some altruism to it, some may think?

I myself would like to believe that I'm entering the medical

profession for many selfless reasons. So many that they would award me with tonnes of Nobel Prizes for it. And yet, I know I am just being delusional, for I would only help those who I can help, provided that they want to be helped. Lately, I seem to reflect on my life. Somewhat, I have been selfishly neglecting my friends and family. My parents do everything in their abilities to support me. They have their lives too. But they had rather take some time out of their busy schedules to be with me. And my secondary school friends are still being kind enough to get me out of my maze of books. I'm still glad that we are still friends, for I know that I can make friends easily, and I could lose them easily too. But then again, in order to grab hold of my goals, I’ve had to somehow selfishly focus on myself. It’s hard to make it through the grueling exams without focusing on what you need to get done. At least, that was what I had thought. The fact that I do not require to score as many good grades now had made me slow down. Thank god that somehow, I am slowly turning into a Type B personality.

in KL for their breaks. No phone calls, no MSN, and I'm somewhat still gleeful. At least I had some peace in mind, without the need to entertain them. Besides, the additional 'schedule' in my life would keep me busy for the time being, without any complains. The "close ties" with my college friends are highly attributed towards the difference in our school of thoughts. What holds us together in the first place was our college itself, and my own "extremely usefulness". This had always been my view of life. The number of friends I have is directly proportional to my very own usefulness. Of course, the term "Out of sight, out of mind" applies once you are of no usefulness. But then again, there would be some exceptions. These, of course, would be proportional to the luck one have, for destiny plays a role in it. Even so, I can guarantee you that each and every soul on earth still feels lonely deep down inside. Even the best of friends could have the darkest thoughts against each other, and they are expressed to a certain extent, with the degree of variability differs between individuals. At least I can say that from my own wide-range of observations, which might not be entirely true, but with a score of 80% confidence level.

resentment. The life would be a better place to live if one helps another. I somewhat find joy in helping those in need, because it heals the heart and soul within. Of course, if one is expecting something in return, one would never be contented with their own aid. In the selfish pursuit of our own path of life, we had to forgo certain things. There is no need to regret, for choices have to be made. Success is measured in different ways, but the central path in the pursuit of happiness, in the end, is to satisfy the soul within. In fact, there's almost no right or wrong in this world. What we do are entirely based on our own beliefs and every single decision lies in our very own hands..

compared to many developing countries. I am indeed thankful. The fact that I am going to serve almost my entire life here does not hamper me, for I know the idealism of people who had the thoughts of migration are no better. I had an aunt who worked as a stock broker in Singapore. She claimed that Singapore is not good enough for her, so she brought her family with her to New Zealand, rather tending on the cows and work in a coffee shop, or sometimes feeding on the unemployment benefits from the government. She boasted it as a good life. Is it really that good, if all these while she had been spendthrift in Singapore? Or perhaps, a lot of old folks came back to Malaysia after emigrating for years, from Canada, Australia, and even England? I have countless stories to share, but I'll just let it be here. However, the politics here is definitely commendable. I mean, the opposition. I am not really pro-government, but the opposition definitely amuse me every time. They bark for the sake of barking?

system. I myself would not deny that I am not, but I am just stating the fact. But let's try picturing this: In US, there are lobbying efforts done to gain favoritism from the government and policy-makers. This is actually, what they call official corruption. In fact, lobbyists are present in all levels of government, in most countries especially the European Union and US, in order to differentiate themselves from being branded corrupted. As a matter of opinion, I just think that they are just high-class corrupted countries. Without corruption, there is no 'extra push' given to move the country.

man was caught speeding on a country road. He 'bribed' the officer to let him go and the police officer consented to it. I'm sure this would cause uproar among citizens of Malaysia as usual, while if they themselves are involved, they would be dying to pay the bribe rather than the summonses. This is seen as unethical conduct and opposed for the sake of morality and the so-called safety of the public. While this is true, is this the absolute judgment of what is right and wrong? On another perspective, let's look at the scenario again. The police officer is being underpaid for his work, and the government is too poor to pay them more. Even if the summonses are monetary contributions to the government, I doubt if the police officer will gain any extra income from there. So, this "bribery" acted as an extra income for them, and the traffic offender pay a lower fees for his offense. Plus, if you think the offender really paid less, think again. An offender receiving a summonses rarely settle it. I know of many youngsters keeping a stash of the tickets as their trophies of honor. So, what the police officer really did was to make sure that the offender paid for his offenses! And here's a disclaimer: I am not advising you readers to commit more traffic offenses, but I'm just trying to let you see from another perspective. In life, it is different from textbooks. There is no absolute right or wrong. All solutions always seem possible.

country's opposition party is still lacking. They point fingers and blame the government for everything, but it is also the opposition's job to give positive criticism to propel the government to move forward, and not instead, just trying to bring down the government's credibility by pointing fingers. The opposition could barely see through the problems in the government's administration. Perhaps, there is also a need to reform the opposition and not dominated by the old-timers and their spoiled children. Regarding to the post on Lim Kit Siang's blog querying the inability of the government to make any arrests on any senior police officers who are claimed to be corrupted. Since there are around 40% of them, any attempt to arrest all of them will cause a vacuum in the police organization and the there will definitely be a security threat due to lack of manpower. And what makes you think that there are definitely better replacements? This is indeed a tricky problem which if I could find the solution, I would be rising up the ranks in MCA perhaps. Let's look at another perspective again. These senior officers, apart from accepting 'bribes', are very able to handle other security matters very efficiently. Being capable and having so much experience, arrresting or firing them will lead to more problems and everything crumples.

not help. Although Datuk Seri Chan Kong Choy was 'blamed' for pointing fingers at everyone but himself, the best thing to be done was to find a solution to all these problems, not by pointing the fingers at the government to take better care of the administration of the roads. Specific details and solutions would have to come up. General ideas like the one posted in the blog can be raised by a 12 year old kid in his UPSR exams. Then the blames can be put on both sides, the government and the opposition if we have to. But of course, a solution is needed, and research needed to be done. If the opposition is really that capable, they could form their own research team into this matter and present it to the government. This would bring better credibility to the opposition. But of course, the equally-as-selfish opposition would not do such time and money-wasting effort because "it is the government's job".

And the best part was, the post on how to emulate
the effort done by China. Being totally different, we would not be able to do such things. Plus, he has not made any research on the economic policy of China. The true cause and effect of China's economic policy and trend is not really as promising as it was thought. Cultural values, family ties and moral ethics had been left out in the development sense. The new generation of China's city folks had been so far mostly branded spoiled brats, indulging in expensive brands and had an exquisite taste for anything..expensive. Being a big country, it would not fall that easily (hopefully), but one have to foresee what that will happen through the course of time. So, we would not want to simply emulate any feat done by other countries without studying them beforehand.

as a whole. I would not say that it is a totally-waste-of-time blog, but rather some idea-generating blog for youngsters and oldsters (whatever you wanna call them) alike. The best part was the one complaining about how his car was being clamped for parking at unsuitable places. He did not blame himself, but instead, cause a furore on the rights on a certain company to clamp his car. Now, would this be so government-like as commented by the opposition? *Wink* In the end, it's just the pot calling the kettle black. So, no fret. Go on with life. Reformation has to be done in both parties, at least, that one day we would have an official opposition just like the one in UK, the Conservative Party against the Labour Party.

Of Human Origin


later time. I guess humans are sociable creatures. Interaction creates ideas, so staying indoor too long would not help much. Picture this: If Isaac Newton had not been sitting under an apple tree, he wouldn't discover the presence of gravity, and there wouldn't be any Universal Law of Gravitation, or perhaps, even Newton's 1st Law, 2nd Law and hence forth. To my amusement, I'd always trying to picture what would happen it was a durian tree. Would Newton STILL discover gravity, or would he end up in the hospital, with the inability to control his mental faculty? On the other hand, Benjamin Franklin's kite experiment to prove the conductivity of electricity can't be proven by staying indoor. After all these lengthy details, I would just like to emphasize to myself not to stay indoor too much. It kills off brain cells and creates an invisible barrier towards discovery.


were we from? What is my lineage, and my blood name. The fact that my Wong family is the only Wong family in the Hakka Clan makes things worse. Did we stray apart from our lineage? Were we aliens who were inept at assimilating that we mixed up the clans and surnames? My flesh looks real, and... never mind about what I said. I had a friend who had commented that I looked like someone from the Middle East!! Another one commented that I had the features of Northern China origin, or perhaps, even like Korean? Maybe that accounts for my distaste towards Korean guys, because I don't find them cute, I just find them..normal.. Haha.. All I could remember was that the Korean Tour guide I had during my trip to Korea commented that I do look like a Korean, plus the experience I had when I was there. There was a seller who was speaking Korean to me!! Maybe I could just blend right in if I'd know some Korean language. I don't mind, since Korean girls are kind of..acceptable. Just kidding. I'm still a Malaysian at heart, despite being a Chinese. Maybe I should attribute my features to my mum's 'mixing' techniques during my 8 months stay in her.

my own, I figured that it is of no importance. Why am I such a fool to try that hard? What is more important is to look forward as we stride ahead. History is a great teacher, but do not stay too long behind such that we do not advance. The excitement is always just in front of you. It is up to you to figure it out and to enjoy. Alas, the burden had been let go. And I am really looking forward as I leave my past who had been a great teacher all these while. I have learned a lot from it. Thank you for all these while. My second enlightenment had arrived somehow. It is time to create another piece of history, at least, of my own, if not for the world.

Food for Thought

into mind is FOOD!! Romantic FOOD!! Another success run by Pixar, especially when you see some teary eyes from the folks in the cinema. I can name you some, but I'll guess I'll keep it to my own amusement. A film to watch for this summer, even if it's winter in the southern hemisphere at this time of the year.

that "The way to a man's heart is through his stomach." But to me, I think it applies to both genders, which means, everyone loves food! Everyone craves for a particular food for some time, at all time. Be it some Italian Pasta, French Pastry, American Fast Food, Chinese exquisite cuisine, Steaks and Grills, Japanese Sushi and Teppanyaki, Korean's Kimchi and BBQ delight, most people have a preference. Or it's just some cakes, some brownies, cookies, Swiss chocolates to some local delights such as Nasi Lemak. The appetising aroma which arouse the joy somewhere hidden in the penthouse in your body, namely the limbic system. I must admit though, food alone had not manage to seduce or tempt my appetite for a long while, although I wonder if it's normal. Maybe it's because I'd managed to 'muscle my way through the gag reflex that opens up a whole new range of possibilities.' (Quoted from Emile in Ratatouille while grabbing a bite at some garbage).

you readers to ponder. Why is it that you crave for that particular food? Delicious? Is that really the answer? Imagine yourself having your favourite food for each meal everyday, making it at least 3 times a day. Go on for 3 months if you can last that long. I know that most of you would be elated at the thought of it, but the truth is, not many can last for more than 3 days, and the numbers decrease as days goes by. It could be that the mind is playing a trick on us, for we long for something that we could hardly get. Scarcity increases its value in today's market of supply and demand. Food that we could always get, we grew tired of it. Therefore, humans are creatures with unjustifiable needs and cravings, which propel them forward to an era of technology surpassing every other species on earth. And yes, humans are also the only creature on earth who would kill their kin not for the sake of survival. Wars are made, and the outstanding feud had never fail to end its cycle. My advice?

someone craving for staple food? You may call them nuts, but I still think that they are perfectly sane. They know what they want. They know what they can enjoy eating everyday without getting fed up with it. They just truly know..what's best for them! I can be a food's worst critic if I wanted to be, but that would not neccesitate me to crave for the best food, for it serves no ultimate goal. The same goes to girls. I may have what others call 'exquisite taste', ' eyes on the top of my head' (where hair grows usually), or some 'discerning eyes', the fact is I do not seek the best of all, just that I'm looking for the one best suits me. I'm kind of a practical person, so I guess I'll stick to the maxim "Love is not with someone you can't live without, but it is with someone you can live with." I am after all, a simple man, and something which may look trivial, like a fried egg, could make this heart of mine contented. =P

Mid-Sem Post

After what seems to be a short while, it's officially mid-sem break. Been trying out different things lately, like swimming under the torture of the iron-lady (stated in my previous post), jogging (which have not manage to make me lose weight, nevertheless makes me feel good and healthy), singing under the drizzling rain in hope of summoning a ferrocious thunderstorm, trying out the dance machine, para para ala hand movements, drums and percussions arcade, and many more. I know it sounds silly, but at least it helps me to get on with life apart from being in med school. The fact that my tummy won't turn into a 6 or 8-pack abs would not hamper my spirit either. I am human afterall, and humans do silly stuff. Well, just like some proverbs from the previous post, a fool who persists in his folly shall become wise. And yes, I just add some into the list yesterday night with a bruise on my right palm, trying to open the cap of a mineral water bottle. The feeble attempt to get that 'something' backfired. Lolz..

I guess I can blurt out nonsensical stuff here, going on and on without pausing, but wouldn't any readers feel bored with it? ( Are there any readers anyway?) So I found a solution to this, which is to read more! It's been quite some time now that I haven't really read, to submerge myself in the ideas and perspective of the authors, to dwell into their thoughts and emotions while they were penning their thoughts to complete what turns out to be a bestsellers. And people like me used less than a day to finish reading what they've created in perhaps, a few months at least?

Therefore, I'm going to stop blogging here for a while, waiting for new ideas to come naturally into my mind. I guess I'll be playing and trying out more different things, being a daredevil, one of its kind. Until then, we shall meet again. Do buzz me on the phone if you need me. I can't promise that I'll always be there, but I will make sure that I will try..

from harping a melodious clattering. The best I could do is to tuck my clammy hands into my dull grayish coat. Damn myself for leaving in a hurry this morning. I could be suffering from frostbite anytime now. The wailing sirens at the other end of the street sent some beggars scampering for cover. They are not to be caught, for their own survival. Funny, I reckoned. Perhaps it was their fear for the authority that made them do that, for they had done no crime yet. Or have they? That I wouldn’t know. What I knew, is that I would be late for my shift if I stood here, allowing my mind to linger aimlessly. I trampled and kicked up some snow dirt in a hurried effort passing through the Royal Opera House. The white building seemed as if it was fully covered by snow. It was a true beauty of architecture, although I had mistaken it as the US’ White House when I first arrived here. It’s unusual to snow in London, but I’m in no mood to enjoy the scenery. Descending into the Covent Garden station, I dashed to the counter to get my ticket, and board the train at the nick of time. The train was unusually packed at this hour. Why? Something struck my mind. They must have been from the London International MIME festival. I had promised to bring her there. But here I am, still stuck with my work. For these past 3 years, I had been breaking more promises than I could make. I figured I would make sure that I’ll be there for her this weekend. The MIME fest is up till this weekend anyway. It’ll be our 5^th anniversary together. I’ll remember to buy some yellow carnations. That’s her favourite.

AMSC 2007 Korea

After a long while, I'd logged on to Facebook to view my account. Saw many photos on AMSC Korea 2007. Seems it was quite happening and at a much larger scale than Taiwan (Of course, definitely) I think I really missed my chance to be there. What a waste.. But then again, if I'd go, I think I would fail my CVS module. Even now, I can't guarantee that I can pass. I hate it. I promised that I would be going for next year's EAMSC and AMSC. God bless allow me to go. I'm relying on my past good karma(if there was really sumthing good in me) to send me there.

On an unrelated issue, I am lamenting here so that for those who are still wondering, yes, I am still alive, barely. Mind has been maxed out, no reserves left. And yesterday, my body had been maxed out too, by the Iron Lady who never knew the meaning of rest. Perhaps I'm just weak. But on the bright side, at least my body and mind are equally weak. I prefer synchronisation rather than asynchrony. At least I can sleep better, with no nightmares, and all the headaches gone temporary. Only time shall heal everything, because I am in no position to do anything..

MLTR Concert in Genting 14th July

Yesterday was a fun trip to Genting. It's Michael Learns To Rock. Well, as the band name has suggested, don't expect any fancy moves by them. Flora was criticising how they dance and move about the stage with the same rhythm whether it is a fast or slow tune. Nevertheless, I still enjoy the concert songs overall, although I would prefer the previous ones that have more of the old tunes. Here's some pics I would like to share, and the let the pics of my W850i do the talking.











Guess I've no mood to continue blogging. MS notes are waiting for me. So here's where it ends. Bye...

Life as a 2nd Year Medical Student

Well, no one said that life was going to be easy, but are we deprived of the rights to complain? Guess not. Here's a summary of what I've done for the past 2 weeks.

1. ECG reading - Had been molested by fellow course mates. Guys and girls are separated, because we need to undress to fix the electrodes as well as avoiding the metal strap(for girls). The procedure was actually quite simple, but I sometimes mind being caressed by guys. I want girls to do it!! Hehe, just kidding. It's all medical anyway, so there's nothing much to fret or be surprised. By the way, I've uploaded some of the videos in Youtube. Search for ECG and you might find it. *wink*

2. Blood Test Practical - A disaster among all. We're supposed to extract blood by pricking our fingers. Pricking is definitely not a problem. It all started when we were required to suck out around 10 ml of blood. Since most of us are so healthy, the coagulation time is so short that we had to prick our fingers many times. I gave up after the 3rd time. So, I went on to do the Hemoglobin concentration test and Hematocrit test only, without doing the blood grouping since I knew my blood type after all. The first test didn't go on due to long que at the spectrophotometer and the 2nd one? Someone forgot to close the centrifugator's cover and all our straw of hematocrit flew off. So, no result in the end. Yi Hui had to be pricked 9 times to get that amount of blood, while Siva needed just 2. Koh Ging was smart, he didn't do at all. -.-" Poor Yan Chin because she showed signs of peripheral cyanosis at the tips of her fingers. Jean was even better. She got pricked 15 times and the blood that she got? Minimal. Maybe she's too skinny afterall. Oops...

3. General Examination - Went to HUKM to learn general examination. We learnt how to examine the hands, pulse rate, respiratory rate, signs of radio-radial delay, eye examination, mouth and facies examination, lymph nodes palpation and pedal edema. At the end of the examination, we had to present our clinical findings to our facilitator. She's Dr Hamizah (If I'm not mistaken). She rather good and I'm looking forward to learn from her. She's an Internist afterall, sub-specialising in Gastro-Intestinal. By the way, I've uploaded 2 videos on this on YouTube as well. n_n"

4. The unavoidable studies is here. A bit worried because this is going to be the first time I worked hard and serious since STPM. I blamed my lack of focus. More often than not, I'll faler into slumber again. There's just no 'kick' yet. And yes, I'm going to search for that 'kick' again. Soon, very soon....

The juniors have reached KTSN yesterday. On Monday, they will be leaving for PPD camp. I'm not really looking forward to have a buddy anyway. After all, humans can be independent. I know a few of my coursemates who really look up on their buddy not because of what they are, but because they are their buddies. Some just can't realize that buddies are just normal freinds, not someone to idolize. They are those dependent ones who always proclaim themselves as self-sufficient and independent. In fact, they are just worse off. I don't go claiming the title of being independent by doing what youngsters do with their naivety. Maybe they just couldn't realize it, but who am I to change the world. I'll just stay laid back, on course for my own goals. I always know that it's hard to find someone who could understand me, or in other words, we understand each other. But experiencing it is definitely another thing. And for you readers' information, understanding does not equal to hot+hot+pretty+less smart+weak. I'm looking for pretty+witty+wise+hot+hot+independent. Haha.. PM me when you find them, or if you think you are one. No matter how I find, the 'wise' ingredient is somewhat lacking no matter where I go. 'Wise' promotes intellectual, and I'd always fancy intellectual stuff. (Academics is never near intellectual for me)

Oops, guess I overshoot. I apologise if I appear being rude, but these are my thoughts after all. If you don't like it, go somewhere and rant it out, or cry under your pillow shouting my name (which would ended in you having a crush on me, haha) Allow me with a poem to end this.

The bell strikes ding dong,
Along came a king kong,
Who came far from Vietcong,
To look for this Ah Wong.

No story had been this long,
They were both quite well along,
Until came a female king kong,
Who flirt more with Ah Wong.

Poor buddy king kong,
Who wanted little king kongs,
But the female's over Ah Wong,
Who knew nothing along.

In the end of this ping pong,
The king kong goes ding dong,
He chased away Ah Wong,
To have this female king kong.

Poor buddy Ah Wong,
Who never knew what went wrong,
He ran away from Vietcong,
To a place full of sarong.

Ah Wong became a flirt kong,
Though he only eat kangkong,
And people will keep singing this song,
Of this poor little Ah Wong.

Friday Post

12, signifying a new day. Saturday. The mood appears to be random, after a long haul of a week. Tireness. Lethargy. The feelings are no longer there to accompany me. These buggers had been lingering for the past 6 months, and all that is left is just a tingling sense of numbness. A part of me urge to ride on the surge wave of excitement, rising high, before going down again. There's always ups and downs in life. And I can say I'm staying quite flat down for some time. I start to wonder if it is just a matter of time before I get myself up or, I'll just stay down low. Afterall, what matters most is not how many times you've fallen, but it is how many times you've risen up. The sudden sense of drowsiness fades my visions, and I could be lost in time and space. And somehow, it all came back to me now, at least for a moment. If only I could grab this moment and make it stay, I could only be recovering from this 'shock'. As usual, only time will tell.

feel lonely. It's not just about a boy-girl puppy love, but rather as a whole. Friendship, family, and anything you could think of. Maybe it's this deprivation that had made me lose my cause in the first place afterall. The friends are all so far, I've been neglecting my parents much due to studies, and, I think I'd almost forgot how does a warm cozy hug feels like, or how the lips of another human being taste like. The moments when we had to run for cover under the rain, the fireworks on Valentine's day, etc. Each 'love' relationship always has its own romantic moments. However, after a year being a 'vegetarian', you just tend to remain so under the name of HABIT. It's just so hard to accept another someone into your life, that is. Or maybe the special someone has not appear, or maybe it has always been there without me realizing it.


quite true about what he'd said. We are not just attracted to the beauty on the first impression. Sometimes, it's just a moment of beauty you see on someone else, be it a day, an hour, a minute, a milisecond,or a nanosecond, expecially when that someone smiles. That will stay in your mind and leave a mark so great that you wouldn't notice until your heart starts to race. *wink* So guys or girls, smile more often. You'll never know who will be charmed by your smile!


this, and I'm ready to doze off. Watched Fantastic Four this evening with Wai Sun. 2 guys, no girls..haha.. And Daytona, Basketball and Time Crisis 4 was the starter at Times Square. Guess I'll need to relax and take life easy. Afterall, it takes a man to admit his own mistakes and limitations. Good night.

The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom.

Prudence is a rich ugly old maid courted by Incapacity.

He who desires but act not breeds pestilence.

A fool sees not the same tree that a wise man sees.

Eternity is in love with the production of time.

The busy bee has no time for sorrow.

The hours of folly are measured by the hours of clock, but of wisdom no clock can measure.

No birds soar too high if he soars with his own wings.

If the fool would persist in his folly he would become wise.

Folly is the cloak of knavery.

Shame is Pride's cloak.

-Proverbs of Hell, Plate 7, William Blake

Left to right: Kah weng, elizabeth, Wai Sun

Flora and Boon Tat

Pic of the Day: Digi Ducks

Back home, I still couldn't believe that I'd watched Ocean 13 twice. This is a lesson to be learnt. Looking at the bright side, I get to look at Brad Pitt twice. n_n"

101st Post - Not so special post

clock kept moving, ignoring the reluctance of mankind. That's life. Nothing stops for the Past. All we have is the Present. And what we are striving for, is the Future. They are just separate entities intertwined by destiny. Nothing can stop the Present from being the Past, nor the Future from being in the Present. And yet, the Past is unkind. What is past remains so. And nothing we could do to change it. So, all we can do is to put the Past in our hearts as we trace the path of Future. Life is afterall, looking forward, not behind.

It could be a sense of satisfaction. For who could dwelve into my thoughts other than myself? I'm just glad that I'd kept my promise. Maybe some readers wonder what is this all about, but let it remain just what it is to you. Mystery. That is what that attracts afterall. It lets you wonder, it lets you dream, it lets you imagine. The tingling sense of uncertainty is what that gives us the thrill in life. Ain't it so?

while, slogging wasn't my favorite past time. Though it's just the beginning, I've at least settled into the surrounding. I've accepted my limitations. I acknowledge them. But it will not stop me from improving. I've told many people to break their limits. Perhaps it's time for me to do it myself. Without such test of faith, I won't realise that I've grown. The man I'd aspire to be is still far away, but at least, I am one step closer. The brewing conflict in the heart for the last month had calmed down. And I'm no longer sick. I'm just a man. A man who do not need to peek in the pants every morning to assure himself that he is a man afterall. I just know I am one.

100th Post -Special Edition

Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[ Chorus: ]
Every long lost dream
Lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

I think about the years I spent
just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost
and give it back to you
but you just smile and take my hand
You been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
that is coming true.

[ Chorus ]

Now I'm just rolling home
into my lovers arms
this much i know is true
that God blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you
That god blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you

Special thanks to the contributors to this meaningful song, including those who had introduced it to me. You know who you are. Thanks.

To be frank, this is my 100th post in this blog. Special thanks to all fellow bloggers and non-bloggers who are here with me reading this blog. When I started this, I'd never thought I'd reach the 100 mark. And now, seeing is believing. Thanks again, and enjoy the song.

Sri Hartamas was supposed to be the next 'in-thing' area. Gone were the days where SS2 was the place. Even Wangsa Maju have places like SS2, just in a slightly smaller scale. Sri Hartamas was supposed to cater for the upper middle class, and everything there is much expensive than you would expect. But, since this is KL area, there's no fret. And Souled Out was one of the hot-spots restaurant in the area. Maybe it's the atmosphere, or perhaps, it's the concept. I wouldn't prefer The Curve for its lack of ventilation, but Sri Hartamas always seem classier than most places. I wonder if I could afford it even if I burn multiple holes in my pockets. Lolz.. Maybe next time I would post some pictures of the place. But for now, I will show u one of the interesting idea I've discovered yesterday.

A creative way to put it.

P.S. And a good aim

poor becomes poor. Some say, it is in their blood. Some say, the rich have the divine blessings of the God. And even some argued that, they just got lucky. Either way, it will still be hard to maintain that large amount of wealth, if you're just lucky, or you need constant God blessing. Maybe that's why those rich men attend church every Sunday? No matter what you think, God plays no part in the difference in wealth accumulation. These are worldly things, if you'd remember. If it's true that God favor the rich, then those poorer (relatively) should buck up and repent. Just kidding.


to the real topic of the day. This is one of the interesting theory I'd saw somewhere on the internet. What you will read may be partially true, as there is no one single factor which determines wealth accumulation. Therefore, viewer discretion is advised. A financial advisor's (preferably not parents) guidance is advisable.

First thing first, we need to redefine our terminology and concepts in these topic. There are few words has been redefined in this sense. So, scroll down and have a look.

Income - Any money that you receive, whether it is for a job done, or goods sold.
Expenses - Any money you fork out to pay something, or you pay someone

Asset - Anything that helps you to generate more money periodically
Liability - Anything that costs you more money (you pay out more) periodically

redefined and may confuse those having accounting knowledge especially. But, this is just a term used to explain the things I would jot down later. So in this case, anything you own may not be an asset. A house you are staying in is not necessarily an asset, because you may have to pay for home loans, maintenance, eg. and you are not receiving any money from it. A house you rented out is an asset, because you receive money for renting it out. A car will always be a car, which is a liability, because you have to pay for its maintenance, car loans, and the most importantly, it has a depreciation value, unlike a house, which you can argue having an appreciation value. Of course, if you are doing car-renting business, that is a totally different story. Thus, a boat is also a liability.

the other hand, can be an asset or a liability, depending on what have you chosen. (Singaporean girls tend to have a higher maintenance cost)

will look forward to this day. This day makes all the employees happy, including your parents. Well, unless your parents are employers, which can make them sad... It's Pay Day!! How would we, as humans, tend to spend our money? There are generally 3 groups of spenders. The rich, the poor, and the middle-class.

INCOME. While this income may not be much, they put it in EXPENSES. Apart from basic stuff like food, they also buy unneccesary stuff like in garage sales. Yes, they may argue that these does not cost much, but little by little, it all adds up to one large amount. "Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit" or "Sehari seanyam benang, lama-lama menjadi kain."

Tracing back to the Malaysian society, the typical EXPENSES we observe are clothes (yes, necessities become uneccesary if you have more than needed, or if you're buying too many branded items), luxury food (once in a while is nice, but spending all your parents money all the time on such stuff?), handphones (I admit me too), car accesories, cute dolls, and many more. The poor may have savings, but in the end, those saving are still used on EXPENSES. In the end, the balance sheet will look like this:

people tends to be professionals. Be it accountants, engineers, doctors, lawyers. These are the groups that tend to be perceived as more well off. The poor envy them, because they lead a better life, or it may seem. The middle class are smarter in the sense that they may not spend all on EXPENSES, and have savings. While they can have savings, they spend it on cars, boats, or a bigger house to stay. These money are actually spent on LIABILITIES, because they make you pay more periodically. This, in the end, also indirectly leads to a higher and higher EXPENSES without them actually realising it.

have much money. Once they are incapable of earning money via their skills trade-off, they have nothing much to rely on except their savings. Some may be able to sustain their life through savings, and some may not, especially when your hyena children are eyeing on your savings and by all means try to make you fork out your savings. Thus:

A hot gf and a car like this? You'll get a nosebleed frequently. They are liabilities

exponentially, and working for a company as an emplyee) the increase in EXPENSES may be able to kill them if not carefully taken care of. This is the irony of all professionals.

the 'rich' here is their mentality, and the description depicts them when they are still uprising. What do the rich buy on payday? While they are still human, they still have EXPENSES. But, just like the middle class, they have savings. This is where the 'something in common' stops. The rich spend their on ASSETS. Something that would create more money. It may be a house to rent it out or just a pinball machine. With these ASSETS, their INCOME expand by time, increasing their spending power. Once they have more INCOME, they buy more ASSETS. And ASSETS gets more INCOME. This healthy feedback will make them rich in time. Thus:

Buffet, the 3rd richest man in the world.(As of April 2007 - current net worth U$ 52 billion, by Forbes)

machine for $25, which they placed in a barber shop. While he is free to tend to his own things, the machines generates profit. With this money, one would expect him to buy a luxury item. Bet most of you will go and buy the most expensive and trendy handphone. Instead, he used the money to get more pinball machines!! Within months, they have 3 pinball machines in 3 different locations. And we were all still parasites when we were 15. -.-"

Warren Buffet

Born: Aug 30th, 1930

P.S. Just don't take this too seriously. It's meant for light reading actually, but guess I might have gone overboard. For more reading on Warren Buffet, here's the link to Wikipedia: