Temptations & Ambitions

So Sick

thanks to my roomate, I'm becoming a night ghost. Trying to 'fix' my internal biological clock, but I saw the blog counter reaching 600 views. Hooray! First, I would like to thank myself for continuouslt viewing my own blog, because I think the 400 belongs to me. n_n" My own blog is the gateway to other people's blog. Next, to all my phantom readers, who never introduce yourself or leave any comments. Whatever, this is just a personal blog cum diary. Thanks for your support. Gosh, I'm too crazy, so sick.


onto bed. Before this, allow me to change the lyrics of a nice song to suit my mood now. From Ne-Yo - So Sick:


And I'm so sick of studies
So tired of tears
So done with wishing I won't be here
Said I'm so sick of studies so stress and slow
So why can't I throw off all the books?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked Nov 27th
Because soon there's no more you
There's no more exam
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And my memory
And how every fact reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of studies
So tired of tears
So done with wishing I won't be here
Said I'm so sick of studies so stress and slow
So why can't I throw off all the books?

*Note: Just a prank. Don't take it too seriously n_n"

I guess I'm just way too bored.. Took so many trivial tests and post it up..zzzz....

You Are 37% Impulsive

You're a pretty stable and serious person. You don't take things lightly. This doesn't mean you can't have fun - you just have fun responsibly. You definitely have a spontaneous side, but you only let loose when it's appropriate.

You Are 45% Passionate, 55% Compassionate

You possess an ideal balance of passion and compassion. You definitely can get swept away and lose your head a little. But you're rarely a fool for love!

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

You Are 80% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

You Are 84% Gentleman

No doubt about it, you are a total gentleman. You please the pickiest ladies, and you make everyone in a room feel comfortable.

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman. You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling. A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you. And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off. You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky. You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 74% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

You've Experienced 40% of Life

You have the life experience of someone in their early 20s. You've seen some of what life has to offer - but you have a long ways to go.

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

Your Taste in Music:

Adult Alternative: High Influence R&B: High Influence 80's Rock: Low Influence 90's R&B: Low Influence Hip Hop: Low Influence

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

KEYS TO MY HEART n_n"

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

Tamadun Islam

read TITAS for the coming exam, which we were supposed to study for the whole semester. All of us, I believe, will be attempting the suicide last minute attempt. But of course, we have network in Bangi UKM who had taken the paper. They were kind enough to give the tips, but in the end we still had to read everything, not much difference. -.-"
Not bad, considering that I've tried my best in a way. Of course many people will have the question mark on their face when I got my B. Many others got A, A-, and B+. Hehe.. Only God and me knows the exact answer. Even if I write it here, no one would understand how my brain functions. 1+1 does not always equals to 2. Will try hard again for Genetics, but of course, the aim is definitely not A anyway. Hehe.. Got to revise my previous modules, otherwise pass also cannot. Haha..
experiment. After that, we were exposed to those expensive equipments. DNA sequencer worth around RM800,000 and there's two there. (I'm not sure whether if it's really worth that much or half the money went 'missing') And there's the 'beam-me-up equipment (I forgot the name of it) that can select the area of tissue for inspection for cancer mutation and the lasers will cut through that area and shoot it up to a special platform, or that's what I heard. That cost RM1 million too. And the RNA analyser which could also analyse DNA as well, worth a few million bucks. Man, I can live happily with that amount of money. Wahaha...
the novel written by Adibah Amin, titled "This end of the rainbow". Guess it will be a good book, so I'm looking forward it to replenish my soul. God bless the flirt king.

Sunshine
mood. Just not in the mood to blog, but I am forcing my fingers on the keyboard, refusing to let go, until my Bleach manga download is finished. Meanwhile, my downloads on House MD season 2 episode 6, Lost season 3 episode 5 and Smallville season 6 episode 5 as well as Bleach and Naruto anime download. Perhaps that will be how I compensate for all the hardwork on weekdays. Tomorrow is the exam for Persatuan Pelajar, and yet here I am, crapping in front of the screen.
medic students were to go there (Got some kaki ponteng, though) Wow, there IS still a CAREER TALK for us? Yeap, by the Ministry of Health, trying to 'brainwash' us so that we will stay and work for the goverment. All the promise of better pay, better insurance, and our choice of specialisation. As if we will know what are we doing by then. We will definitely need to pass and graduate 1st, then only think much of it. It's still a long way to go. -.-" Anyway, free lucnh was provided. Oops, did I mentioned free lunch? Barely. We were given lunch because we listened to the talk. Remember, there is no free lunch in the world.
everything. The problem is to remember everything so that I won't flunk in the exam. Still need some brushing up. There's where the problem lies. Kiasu people will always be kiasu people. Still trying to get rid for the most of it. Thought I had get rid 99%, but seems like the 1% is starting to grow into 30%. What a jerk. Trying to suppress it because I know it will impede my performance anyway. God knows why, but I don't think anyone would like to bother about it.
for the first time as a medical student. The last session of our clinical skill session, to interview actual patients. My group was to go to Surgery Ward 7 (Otorinolaringologi -ENT) in level 5. The place where my grandmum went for her surgery few years back, after which had influenced my choice to enter UKM. Auji, my partner wasn't here because the 2nd bus were too late. So, I had 'my' patient all by myself. An old Chinese Guy. He spoke Mandarin and greeted me. Me, being honest, introduce myself as 1st year student (Luckily he didn't got shocked). He was a nice and friendly guy, being quite healthy with no obvious symptoms of aging from his movement. Here is my finding:

History of presenting illness:Mr Tam Chun, a 77 year-old retired Chinese male restaurant owner was admitted to the ENT department in HUKM on the 1st of November 2006, presenting with a swollen right neck for a week, 4 days after he had an extraction of the bottom right wisdom tooth. He complained of a mild headache, particularly at the occipital area, fearing that the suspected tooth infection might interfere with his brain function. He had no dysphagia nor dyspnoea. Previously, he had undergone a blood test from the area of his right sowollen neck on the 28th October 2006 as an outpatient. CT scan and Ultrasound scanning revealed no confirmatory diagnosis, with the only finding of 3 "tumor-like" growth on his right swollen neck. He is due for a fine needle aspiration cytological test on the 3rd of November for the abcess on the right sowllen neck, mainly for biopsy reason to check for malignancy.
Past Medical/Surgical History: No history of any chronic medical illness. Had a surgery for Intra-Medullary Nail insertion into his right femoral bone in 2000 in Hospital UM due to a fracture got from falling from a bicycle. He is not on any medication.
Past family history: There is no cause of multifactorial inheritance. Parents died of old age. His wive is 75 years old, who had underwent 2 surgery before in HUKM, colonectomy and a right knee-joint replacement. He has 3 sons who are working and healthy, along with theor wives. He has 5 grandchildren. He is currently living with all his 3 sons in Paramount Garden. He has no allergy.
Social history: Retired. Goes for jogging everyday, and helps in minding his grandchildren. Smokes an average of 10 cigarettes a day and was a social drinker before he quitted drinking.

illness, and I won't be able to give out any differential diagnosis. It's just to train our interaction skill. Even if I'm to diagnose him, I would only guess that he had a tooth infection, probably due to bacterial infection which causes his lymph nodes to enlarge, causing the swell on the right neck. Headache? Maybe just due to the infection. Treatment? Just give antibiotics. And don't ask me what antibiotics. I wouldn't know either. I'm just 3 months into the course. It's kinda fun relating back to the incident, but my future is just so bleak. I'm too overwhelmed by so many things coming into my head at one go. God bless.

Rankings?

World Uni rankings means nothing to me. Yeap. That was what I said in one of my post centuries ago. Brought in by the propaganda, I don't need people to tell me which is good. I do my own homework. Nevertheless, I'm sure there is a commotion of the latest world ranking. I'm taken by surprise too, because UKM has risen so fast up the ranks. What? Did they pay the QS to elevate it? Nah, don't think UKM is that capable. Or overseas propaganda? Nah, UM is worthless to bring down. It's just the pride of most local Malaysian grads (not me though). Or somehow they just struck the jackpot? Weird. The truth is out there, and until I 'out' there then, I won't be able to find it out. Been browsing the Times online (free 14-days with my multiple accounts, for evey time I wanted to see it) and saw the rankings for Science, Biomedicine and Technology, the 3 latest list. As usual, none of the local public Uni is in the technology list. But, UKM is 62nd on the Science Uni list, with UM on the 95th. Surprise!! Nah, just kidding. UKM was in the top 100 last year, a minor improvement means nothing. But I guess UM will be celebrating again for the '95th' position again. Haha.. Back to the last list? Biomedicine. It was the list where UM excel in top 100 last year and they boast of their medic course, by the way. I guess they must have handicap other uni, cause they are not in it this year. And my my... I was looking at Nottingham Uni at 51st (a surprise for an engineering uni to get into top 100 for biomedicine but not in Technology, maybe there's another column for engineering, I guess.), then I saw Malaysia!! UKM in 56th!! At the moment, I was looking for UM. There, I saw another Malaysia!! At 95th placing. But, I realised it's not UM, it's USM. Lolz.. USM is on the rise too? Have to say so. I know UPM and USM will rise too, but UKM will lead the rise because it's the oldest after UM (by a merely 10 years, of course, by excluding the years UM WAS in Singapore, which is the current NUS). In the end, the rankings does not really reflect anything real. The standards of all public Uni will be more or less the same one day, and it won't rise too high, because of our rules and regulations. Yet, there is one thing that matters, UM's pride has been hurt. Sayonara, I don't want to listen to any people boast about UM. All public Uni grads are even.