Temptations & Ambitions

Today will my last day at Pizza Hut. Supposingly, today is my offday. Then again, the RM arranged that I'll work today for closing. It's kinda tiring, but I don't mind, since it's the last day. The page of my life just stood blank again, waiting to be filled up. I don't have plans yet, and I'll have to recuperate from such fatigueness first. I'll have to sort out everything first. There's this volunteer work to help coach my secondary school chess team, as well as my friends second hand book for sale. It was tempting to earn something from it, but I did not do so. I just don't want to earn that little money yet, or maybe I want to gain favors maybe? For friends, I could just do it. When I quit the job, I know I had plenty of free time to do it. All for the sake of experience and making friends.
Well, there's this invitation from Heng's parents to work for WWF (World Wildlife Fund) at the donation side. It's kinda like begging, and I'm not sure if I'm up to it. In a way, one can view it as helping to get donation to protect the wildlife. Whatever it is, it offers a brand new experience. It is just a conflict of interest to do it or not. I am in despair thinking it over. Maybe I'll be going to give it a try someday. But just not now for the near future of perhaps, 2 weeks.
I really have to bid farewell to Pizza Hut. To Mr. Sham, I am grateful because you took me in under your tutolage, working in Pizza Hut is an honor for me. When no one else would like to hire me, you saw something in me, hiring me without much question. I return your kindness with all my dedication and hard work, not for Pizza Hut only, but for you. Mr. Anthony, thanks for respecting me as a person and you did help me a lot by giving insights of the Pizza Hut management. Being the doorpesron gave me the chance to listen to your meeting with all 8 restaurant managers of yours including those from The Weld, Bukit Bintang, Maluri, and Ampang Park. To Kak Maizatul, and Hanif, both who are assistant managers, thanks for helping me in the tasks in Pizza Hut. The other 2 shift managers, Kak Zahariah and Ismail, I don't really like both of you due to your inabilities, but I respect you as authorities above me. Kak Dilla, the future All-star, thanks for being patient teaching me and I do admire you for your abilities in handling the tasks in Pizza Hut. Hope your dream to do your own restaurant business will come true. Kak Ashikin, the fastest cashier, you are indeed the greatest in front of the cashier machine. Kak Halimah and Kak Wani, both All-Stars of Pizza Hut, thanks for teaching me when I was real newbie in Pizza Hut. I won't forget those days. Dzul, Khairi, Imran, Lona, Iera, Joe, Kamal, Azura, Khairul, Hew, Heng, Nik, Monaliza, Ikhwan, Hajar, it's been nice working as service-staff with you guys. i won't forget the nights we were doing closing together, or selling ice-blended to achieve our 100 cups target on that day, which we sold more than 150 that day, but we fail our CHAMPS evaluation that day too. Bani, Razwan, Shahrizal, Husri, Wan, the few delivery riders of Pizza Hut, congrats for your punctual delivery everytime. Koslal, Indra, Suria, the chefs of Pizza Hut from Nepal who can cook a deal lot of Pizza Hut delicacies. Also kitchen crews including Mus, Zaid, Asmir who work equally hard to get the food served to the customers. perhaps, this will the memories of Pizza Hut that will stay in me forever. My first job, my first experience.

It's final. And it's official. I'd sent in my resignation letter to Mr. Sham. He gave in at last, allowing me to leave. Alas, the doormaster is soon to be gone, and a new chapter of my life will unfold. Learning from there was definitely fun. No matter how I dislike any of them, I soon found myself heavy-hearted to leave. The days when I was so new to the 'world' and the days when I picked up everything that I could learn in such a short time. In the end, it will be just memories. My first job, and it will have the most impact in my life. It seems that my first job could not even outlast my first love. It dissipated so easily, in perhaps, 1 month and 19 days. Even my first love last for about 3 months and 15 days, about twice as long. Well, maybe my second job in the future would be a better one. I learnt hardship, endure it, with all I can. By now, I'm all exhausted physically and mentally. Fatigueness is the greatest obstacle, and I found myself succumb to it. Not even the hardest exam or STPM can bring me to such condition, and now I truly treasure my studying life. They were gone, and were my past. But I would still have few more years to go, counting down, as my working years will be counting up. I will enjoy my life then!

I've gotten news that STPM results will be out on 16th MArch. Basically about 3 weeks from now. By now, I welcome the anxiety filling up my body, giving me a lease of life. At least, I've found something to look forward to. The work at Pizza Hut had almost turn me into a mindless one. I've learn everything I wanted, and there is nothing much left. Perhaps, it is time to quit.

But, the question is, am I willing to quit? I still remember the days when I got rejected for most jobs, just because I had no experience at all. I turn round and round squandering opportunities, just because of the lack of experience. And I returned to Pizza Hut a 2nd time, and I got admitted right away. Mr. Sham is a kind person indeed, or we can say, it is common to change staff there. But at least, he gave me a chance to prove myself. My 1st job, the biggest impact of my life, when my ego was brought down to earth, and even then, no one would like to hire untested mettle. I worked hard, strived to be one of the excellent staff, even to the extend of being called the 'blue-eye boy'. And now that I've learned everything as much as I could, is it right to turn my back on them? Ouch, a tough choice indeed. The conflict of ethics, morality and self-interest had made a clash of conflict. How could I had a 3-pronged solution that could satisfy all of it? It leads me into deep confusion lately, thinking too much of it is hazardous. And I had given myself 4 reasons for quiting. Pay hazard, health hazard, relationship hazard and brain hazard. Ah, I'll never foresee the consequences of my actions. Only time shall tell, time shall tell.

3:34am in the morning. Just got back from Pizza Hut after a tiring day. Still, I found some time relaxing, poring over the computer screen. We're having a new product briefing, about the new side orders of the Atlantis promotion. Well, at least I got the chance to taste it. The Thai Tuna Roll was delicious, while the Tortilla Sun Wrap would be delicious if serve hot, being full of brinjals, suitable for vegetarians, especially brinjal lovers. Lastly, the Golden Fish Fillet was tasteless, as only the outer layer of flour tasted ok, while the meat was.. bland. Seems that those sold at Pasar Malam will taste better than that. -.-"

The day before was an experience, because I had the chance to be the 'Restaurant Manager' for half a day. The actual Restaurant Manager (RM) was having a meeting with all his assistant and shift managers. My task is on the floor. (Not the actual floor of sweeping and moping) I followed up the customers' needs and make sure everything is in order. The 4 hours ask during the day is quite simple because it's not really busy at that time during daytime. It was just so tempting to misuse my power and torture everyone. Lolz..

In the evening, I was supposed to take care of a section with Hew, but Kamal was absent. As usual, I took over the doorperson job again. Up till now, I had become the doorperson specialist. The 1-month plus training had made me famous for being the doorperson. They LOVE me to do it, maybe because I'm at least more outspoken than the rest in handling customers. Haha, the timid me had been the most outspoken? They must be much worse. Hew was the Ice-Blended specialist, promoting the Ice-blended the best. He was the main factor of the high sales of Ice-Blended in this restaurant. heng will be the runner specialist, serving food at all the tables as efficient as ever. anyhow, got my biggest tips today. I treated a family of 7 well, although I wasn't really that 'kind' tp them by offering them a place not of their choice. But eventually, the customer wasn't that fussy afterall, and I gave my best service out of my heart. I even joked with the customers, checking everything is in order for them. In the end, he gave a RM10-note as my tips. Whoa..I really did not expect that. What I hope was just RM1 at most.. Hehe..And my total tips for the day jumped to an all time high of RM16.

Then again, I had my part of bad experience. A customer had a miscommunication with me. I'm the doorperson, and he expect me to help him in doing his 'drive-thru' at Pizza Hut. what a joke, but what had u expect from Middle-east people? They can only be either nice people or rude people, being at these two extremes only, and no betweens. He asked my full name, and I gave without fear, because he can't fire me, and I don't plan to extend my career for this lowly-paid job.

I was planning to quit on last Sunday. I gave my letter but the RM made me take it back. He explained, and literally begged me and Hew to stay. I knew he is short of staff, but the initial refusal of his managers to pay after 12am was ridiculous, especially on weekends. We had to work till 1-2am for free? And the long hours withou break is really taxing. Then again, he agreed to accomodate our demands. Couldn't say we were fussy, because we demand what was rightfully ours. We didn't ask for a raised, just that we want to be paid for our deservingly work. So, I just don't know hwen will I be quitting from there. I'll never know.

Hi, I believe this would be my first post in here. I would at this time, there would be no one having a peek here yet. Perhaps, this would be the second time I'm changing my blogging space. It's alright, because I want some privacy. The first was known, but soon it became forgotten for now. But, I would leave it a while, perhaps. The second had been a rant-and-rave place, without any privacy anymore. Here, I wish I could pour out my feelings, and after a long time, I might put it on public? Who knows? But now, let me officiate this one. Yay!!